I'm gonna let it shine.....i hope!

 To be a star, you must shine your own light, follow your own path, and don't worry about the darkness, for that is when the stars shine brightest!

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I really don't feel like shining today.  I'm tired and I'd really rather head on back to my warm bed, pull the covers up and sleep for a couple of more hours.  My body is tired and my energy feels low today.  Perhaps, it is because it is Thursday or perhaps it is just that I've been "on" for a few days with lots of people and as an introvert---I do need some silence in my life to regenerate.   I feel like today, there is a battery in my star that may be flickering a bit.  I'm saying this in hopes that by throwing it in the Universe, I'll feel an energy surge.

I find shining to be hard.  I don't mind being a source of light or being compassionate and sharing my energy with others--but when I reflect on my own level of comfort....

I have a hard time...

opening up the blinds and letting the world

see the fullness of what I have inside.

What is it that holds me back, I wonder?

Memories and Experiences of the Past...

Hurt of Rejection when I've really tried to share it?

Fear that others will laugh?

Sharing light is easy---shining..

well that is where I've got some growing to do....

I see people's reaction to me sometimes...

the startled look on their face in a "i can't believe she just said that look"

and even though I'm open to what other people believe and think and feel.....

when I share openly and honestly

I find that most people are not ready

to

ask the deeper question,

hear the real truth

feel the warmth of deep love

or

embrace a deep rich connection

basically 

they are just more comfortable not going there.

So when I sing...

this little light of mine....

I'm gonna let it shine...

I feel that question mark inside of me...

Am I brave enough?

Can I stand more pain of being different?

Is it worth it?  Really worth it?

Shine all over the world----

Shine all over my town---

Shine all over my home----hum....I don't know...

Perhaps..just perhaps today

will be a day

when

just for a moment....

i

open up the blinds,

pull up the shade,

draw back my protective curtains

and

for just a split moment...

just once today...

I will give it a try...

I'm gonna let it shine!!!!

I'll let you know what happens....

Happy Thursday!!!!

hugs and blessings.