Tuesday, January 29, 2013

quantum living

I live on this small planet with other people 7.080.360.000, this is the story of some of them. On average, say 2250 words per day to 7.4 other people. We send over 300 billion emails, 19 billion text messages in addition to this giant mosaic of patterns and proportions. The diagrams, mathematical models, are hidden in plain sight, you just know where to look, but only some of us see how the pieces fit together. It is all predetermined by mathematical probabilities, my job is to connect those numbers to those destined to meet, those whose destinies are touching.
Jake in the series "Touch"

I have been thinking a lot this weekend about how are lives intertwine and about how our stories weave around, move around and twist around upon themselves in a series of invisible ways so our lives intersect.  I don't know what the mystery of all this life-writing occurs---does it occur by  unseen "coincidental" splashes and crashes unplanned and all random like? or is there a Mystery of sorts--a great mathematician who carefully calculates a series of events to get us where to the right place at the right moment when we need to be there.  I'm not sure I reside in either court these days---too many rich experiences have occurred in my life to believe that everything is just happenstance---unexpected moments that crash together in time with human beings that make meaning---nor do I believe that the Great Mathematician has a big ole calculator and graph paper all set up to coordinate a series of chess like events among a group of so call people full of free will.   \Perhaps the math comes in the form of the possibilities that beckon us forward  as
some of us move in linear lines
getting us from point A to point B
 focused and planned and takes an act of 
great "happenstance" or "possibility" to awaken us 
from our glazed over dream of getting to the end.
Others of us--wander around---crashing into this,
diving into that \
in a series of twists and moves that when graphed
creates swirls and twirls and beautiful patterns that appear to have no rhyme or reason.

Somehow
Someway
we humans
moving in our patterns,
driven by probability and risk
move around
mix around
bump into each other
touch each other
lives mixing and turning and sometimes churning.
thinking we are on our own plan
in the midst of  our own kind of ordinary
and
some type of unseen catalyst
moves among us
with a invisible thread of love
and
touches us
connects us
brings us humans together in a universe so big we are but a pinprick
and
it happens
we are transformed 
through and because
....
Change
Hope
Love
Wonder
LIFE
.....
and 
as Jake would say
quantum correlation
unites us in an equation so complicated
none of us quite get it 
but in tiny slices so small we forget it as soon as we get it.

Tiny circles, invisible connections crossing throughout the universe
Life.

Have a happy day....
Blessings to all of you,

the radical rambler



7 billion people on a small planet, suspended in the vastness of space and we are alone. The meaning of all this is the great mystery of our fragile existence. Perhaps the fact of being alone in the universe unites us, makes us depend on each other for small things, creating a quantum correlation between you and me, between us. And if this is true, then we live in a world where anything is possible. (Jake)

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Monday, January 21, 2013

too sexy for my age......too sexy!

"I'm too sexy...
too sexy for my age...to0 sexy for my age
....to0 SEXY!"
ME

Well it is almost here
that moment 
when 
I become the age 
that I used to think was ancient..
over the hill,
almost in the grave....
and
you know what...
as I hit the top of the hill called 50
or mountain as it has felt on some days....
well
looking over the edge of mid-life
doesn't look or feel or seem half bad...
hell
I'm sexier and have a hotter body than I did at forty...
I'm almost sixty pound lighter
I'd hoped to be 90 pounds lighter by now but 
you know
sexy hot
is
sexy hot 
regardless of the number.

Age brings about a different feel
it transforms us
heals us
and
somehow 
someway 
if we let it
helps us realize the
fragility of life
the 
sacredness of each little moment
the wonder of sunsets and rainbows
and
snowstorms and rain.

Suddenly
the little things
like whether my make-up 
looks right (and off color daughter did make the comment yesterday---you know most mom's teach their girls how to put on make-up or dress them in frilly clothes---it's a shame that somebody your age can't get their lipstick on right--dear lord mom!!!)
I no longer care
if I'm dressed the way everybody else thinks I should
my spandex for the gym is comfortable
and
I'm sure 
makes me the hottestest 
thing on the treadmill or stepper---yes I'll admit it if nobody else says it.
I wear my jeans and sneakers 
and cotton long sleeves shirts...
sexy is as sexy does--that's what I always say....
so here 
as I hit the edge of 
what some consider 
half-way
mid-life
I stand on the 
edge and
say...
Here I am world
sexy hot mama
...
now what we gonna do?

Have a great Monday...
and
remember
sexy is as sexy does
spandex, jeans, crooked lipstick and all!!!

The radical rambler

random acts
5.   stopped to listen to an older mother
tell me about the fact that her daughter
is dying right before her eyes...all I could do was stand
hug her and let her talk....presence is often everything

6. sent a facebook note to a fellow blogger whose writing has meant so much.

7.  a "random" act of hope to a stranger

go...on be a great day and make a difference to someone.


Thursday, January 17, 2013

I'm melting...

\
"Ohhh! You cursed brat! Look what you've done! I'm melting! Melting! Oh, what a world! What a world! Who would have thought a good little girl like you could destroy my beautiful wickedness! Ohhh! Look out! Look out! I'm going! Ohhhh – Ohhhhhhhhhh!"
LAST WORDS OF THE WICKED WITCH OF THE WEST


when i worked in ministry as a vocation...
way back in the days
when my eyes were still glazed over
and
I thought
birds always sang 
and 
good things always happened to good people...
I always kept 
figurines of the Wizard of Oz
sitting on my desk
I suppose it really wouldn't be a bad thing
to put them on my desk in the secular world
but
I prefer that my employees 
not always know how sensitive I am or how I look for meaning in every situation
I sort of keep those things to myself these days
sort of as a means to protect myself from hurt and disappointment
...but that was just a side bar ramble
....so back on topic..
way back then...and probably a bit now...
I thought these characters really resembled what life
was really all about
and
how all together
the characters taught us much about humanity...
I mean
aren't we all
sort of like Dorothy
following a yellow brick road of sorts
thinking we going to get there...you know to the rainbows end...where life will be rosy and wonderful and...you know
just what we were looking for and waiting for....
Toto...well sometimes each of us needs to sit in the basket and let someone else carry us along..whether we like it or not....
it teaches us about friendship and love and care
it helps us learn about leaning and community and how wonderful it is when we are downtrodden and heavy
for someone..anyone...to just pick us up and carry us for a bit....
it has taken me a long time in my almost 50 years to learn how to 
trust that someone else is strong enough to carry me and my burdens...and in it...I've learned that most things are bearable as long as someone else loves us a bit...
The tin man....well we all need a heart....
need to know how to feel 
empathy and concern and love most of all...we all need oiled up a bit every once in a while to keep us from squeaking and freezing up...
The scarecrow...Lord knows....if we'd only use the brain we have instead of our spontaneous impulse occasionally we'd stay out of trouble...
the lion..teaches us courage....and hell fire and brimstone...every last one of us at some point in our life 
has to face something that scares the beJesus right out of us....
and courage...well it keeps us going in spite of everything else...

The good witch...the world needs more of like her.....to sprinkle goodness and faith and hope in the world....and if we aspire to be her
then from time to time we make it...
and
become a source of goodness in the world...
and
truth is we are always looking for the Wizard
that thing that 
moves us forward
pushes us and pulls us and
offers us some kind of magic...
and
then the mother of all mothers
the b of all b's
the witch of all witches..

most of us don't want to admit it..
but 
dammit to hell
we've all got a bit of her in us...
selfish and self centered
sometimes
a bit that is downright mean
with a pitch of ugly 
...
she is in all of us
whether we admit it or not
some of us hide her better than others...but she still resides
somewhere in the midst of who we are

i love the scene in the movie 
where the witch is splashed with water
and suddenly
right before our eyes
it happens
little miss Meany
the bad girl herself
falls to the ground
and
melts into vapors that dissipate into the air....never to be seen again..

they are all important--these pieces of us---and serve a purpose to a degree or so..


I try to hide 
my 
"bad witch side"
the side that has the mean thoughts
who wants revenge
who really doesn't like someone...
and
she rises up
points her finger
gets her warty nose right in your face..
i don't like others to see her...

most often when she comes out..
someone else sees the bitch in me
and calls me out right there in the middle of the world and splashes me with a bit of water...

splashes me with a drop or two 
remnants of
the baptismal waters where I was birthed...
I appreciate when 
someone steps out and slaps me with 
a cool reminder of 
who I am and whose i am
causing 
the bad girl 
to evaporate the mean 
melt the warts away...
if only for a few minutes or hours....

so let's face
we are all like the branches in the trees of the picture from my backyard
covered with heaviness
layered with tiny little things that add up 
make us distracted
allows the bad witch in us 
to show our ugly green face...

but isn't it wonderful
when 
out of nowhere
cool water springs forth from the fountain of love
spews forth,
moves over the ancient basement of time
and
somehow
someway
meets 
the mean girl in me
melting  
mellowing 
moving me to a different phase
...
for a moment 
...
to allow the better parts of myself
to shine through....for the world to see.....

....
somebody
anybody
...
when you sense that I am 
all frozen
and
distracted and removed from the source of love and grace and hope...
..somebody...
any ole body
run on over
and 
drizzle me 
splash me
drench me from head to toe
and
melt away
the ice along 
go on..melt my witch away....

i can feel it..
melting...
I'm melting...

...
and
it is a good thing!

i suppose
the oz characters
do hold potential for teaching us about our own life...

go on...
follow the yellow brick road
'until you wind your way back 
on around to where you started
and
you hear yourself say...
"there is no place like home"

blessings and hugs

the radical rambler
in 
a rambling mood!

Friday, January 11, 2013

Reflection....

“Life can only be understood backwards;
 but it must be lived forwards.”
Søren Kierkegaard

Our life-
pebble tossed out into the Universal pool
creates ripples
some we see
some we feel
some so tiny and minute that we think they don't really make a difference
but
still
movement
energy 
atoms and electrons speeding through the universe
always creates an impact of sort
and when 
created from our presence 
 something somehow moves out in ways we can't always understand
moves
across the vastness of the Planet
spreading whatever it is 
we put forth
spreading it
sowing
shaking
the world up a bit
...
Sometimes
the tiny
peaceful ebb
of the plain old tiny 
ordinary
pebbles
is what the world most needs
goodness
love
mercy
grace
the invisible wonder
of 
life
moving 
in and around
the tiny little something
....
I suspect
that I'd much rather be
a tiny little ebb
bearing goodness the best I can
than to 
be the stormy wave
splashing 
crashing over the goodness of others...

The world
it is full of all kinds of ripples
and
if we are honest
our little stones
catalyze 
both kinds of waves
depending one where we are on a given day.

Today...
I hope 
my ripples
move forward
to hold others up on 
an extension of love
that I cannot even see myself
that the light
shining from me
it offers others hope
that my glass is always running over--
not half full or half empty
and
that the ebb
created by my presence
will be part 
of healing
hope
and 
Joy to and in a world full of hurt and pain....

Go on...
let your ripple change the world....

Blessings....

the radical rambler

UPDATE
4 random acts of kindness completed
and
I prefer to hold the intimate details but 
will offer you a blurb or two in hopes that you two will decide to put for 28 acts of kindness into the world

1.  listened with my heart to a person whose name I did not know 
talk about her husband who had died recently---
sometimes real engaged presence 
 are all someone needs at any given moment.

2.  helped a family who could not speak English with directions--
sometimes body language and eye contact are the only language people need.

3.  sent a gift of love to an old old friend who will not be expecting it---sometimes
those who are closest need to be reminded by 
taller wave that they are cherished and loved and valued.

4.  notes to people with a loss---lesson
it is not what you say---but that you share a bit of yourself
love speaks in ways 
words can't describe


Go on....
think about it...
stand still for a moment and then
let your love propel you
to ripple the world
in ways that might even surprise you...
then reflect back upon what you learned

I'd love to hear from you!

happy weekend!

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Epiphany Ramblings........

“There's nothing better when something comes and hits you and you think
 "YES'!”
J.K. Rowling

e·piph·a·ny
1.  sudden realization: a sudden intuitive leap of understanding, especially through an ordinary but striking occurrence
2.  appearance of god: the supposed manifestation of a divine being

In our ancient stories,
the writers had a great way of letting us readers know---"somebody" finally "Gets IT"....There would always be some strange interaction with a "stranger" in the form of an angel 
and then all kind of lights and winds and strange things would happen.   Wonder what it would be like
if everytime us humans had an epiphany
lights would flash and bells would ring.
It would be a "strange" but interesting kind of place...wouldn't it?

I wonder what it would look like
if every time IT happened
to us human beings
a flash of light went off...
a spark or flash spanned the darkness...
wouldn't it be great
if throughout our ordinary mundane
typical day...
we're walking down the aisle of the local Kroger
or running on the treadmill 
of the gym or walking down the hall of school
or sitting at our desk
we see it
a glimmer of God moments happening all around.
What if
suddenly in the midst of confusion
we look up and see
"IT"
that thing
that 
comes to all of us
in all kind of ways...
wouldn't it give us hope...
beckon us to seek the extraordinary
wouldn't it get us out of our day-to-day "normal" routine.

I'd love to see it..
just once in my life
all us humans walking around
with our "aha's" all hung out for display 
in full public view...
lights flashing and going off
as if the paparazzi was following
us everywhere.

Truth is 
epiphanies happen all the time....
and 
if we humans
could see with the 
spirit eye
if we had the nerve to actually 
see the Mystery at work in the world
it would happen
we'd change
be transformed
be healed
be something
....
light upon light
striking 
like little fireflies glimmering in the darkness
as 
the 
Creator
meets
human
face to face
a spiritual smack down of sorts
"getting it"
"learning"
"discovering"

BECOMING
as 
"something or someone or some something"
comes to us
in the midst of
the ordinary
and
opens us up
crack us open
awakens us
to a life
where
we are

refreshed
revived
restored
re Visioned...
.....

The Mystery
it comes
tapping
sometimes banging even
on our soul spaces....
inviting us
to 
something...

hoping...
just hoping..
we'll give into IT as it invites us to a new spaces and places
that might be scary or unusual or downright crazy...

IT meets us
and
whether others see the light
..
IT is there
moving around
in the atoms and electrons and spaces around us
and
it waits...
waits 
for us to say...

Ah...I get it...
IT is you....
what you got...
Here am I---send me!

May each of us
awaken
to the wonder of 
the 
Extraordinary
and
be changed.
Go ahead--
let it wake you up
I double dog dare you!

blessings to you on this epiphany night!

The radical rambler



Thursday, January 3, 2013

In a blink of an eye.....

WE ALREADY HAVE
 everything we need. There is no need for self-improvement. 
All these trips that we lay on ourselves—the heavy-duty fearing that we’re bad and hoping that we’re good, the identities that we so dearly cling to, the rage, the jealousy and the addictions of all kinds—never touch our basic wealth. 
They are like clouds that temporarily block the sun. But all the time our warmth and brilliance are right here. This is who we really are. 
We are one blink of an eye away from being fully awake.” 

If we already have 
everything we need
right there tucked 
in the corners of our heart...
If our light
vibrates in anticipation
of being let out into the world
and
the energy is pushing against 
our soul space
I wonder
what are we waiting for---

judgement of others
laughter
poking fun
weird looks

they are all 
other peoples way 
of blocking
us
keeping us clouded from the universe
somehow
it or they or their energy
has a way that makes
us feel 
inadequate
like our light
can't shine bright enough to make a difference 
in the whole universe
our spark...
that tiny little thing..
it really doesn't matter....so why bother
letting others see.

and
I stop
and
i think...
what if in the blink of an eye
I opened up
not giving a damn about 
how weird others think I am
not caring that I 
don't see the world the way
many do...
what might happen
if 
I said...
enough

move back clouds
get out of my way
....
my light
the world could use a bit more of it....
...
I feel the warmth on the surface
the spark of illumination
pressing
to move into the world
...
so what am I waiting for...

...
in the blink of an eye...
I can choose
to do it...
let my light shine....
and
so can you....

blink
and
decide
to live
fully
humanly 
alive
.....
let your light shine...

Happy new year...
Happy Thursday...

the radical rambler