honest tuesday....

Life is full of beauty.

 Notice it.

 Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. 

Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.

Ashley Smith

Today, I don't feel like I can see anything
no bumble bee,
no small child
and
I dare anyone smile at me.
I'm in a bad mood
and
everyone is bothering me....
and
truth is...
I know it is not them...
it is me---dammit to hell---

I suspect we all go through life at times,
wandering around
wondering
through
our day to day things
and
all of it swirls up together
and
we may look nice and pretty and tied up
on the outside
but inside
we're screaming
fearful
drowning if you will.

I put on my make-up
pretend it is all great
and
head out the door
.....
another day
....
another moment
...
and
I
try to open myself to the love of the universe
but
I don't feel it
wonder if it is there...
I hope...
move another step
and
search for
IT
the mystery
all tied up in
a bumble bee,
the rain,
a smile
a
child
and
I realize

....
though it is hard
believing in the power of potential
I know
it will turn
the tide that is
my emotions
my discontent...
so
on this Tuesday morning..
as bad of a mood as i am in..
i will just keep
walking
one foot
one step
on potential move
and
believe
believe
it,
i
the world
can
and will get better...

happy Tuesday
The radical rambler