Life is a Balancing Act....

--

To find the balance you want, this is what you must become. 

You must keep your feet grounded so firmly on the earth that it's like you have 4 legs instead of 2. 

That way, you can stay in the world. 

But you must stop looking at the world through your head. 

You must look through your heart, instead. That way, you will know God.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

Life is a balancing act and if I am honest with you--and I always try to be even if you don't want me to be---some days I'm not very good at it.  I'm a bit OCD--some days more than others.  I obsess about stuff--some important and some down right "stupid"---I don't like that word---but in this case it is "TRUE" as Honey boo boo would say!!! 

Over the years, I've caused my blood pressure to rise while I run on the hamster wheel trying to get from here to there and there to here

never really being sure where I was going but getting there as quickly as I could.  This came at the cost of important things--like having fun or seeing the sunset or walking barefoot in the freshly cut grass.....I was always too busy you see...getting there and I didn't even know where there was.  

I thought there came with success in the work place

climbing the ladder upward--always upward---steeper and steeper I climbed--but it didn't bring about more happiness--only more stress.

I spent lots of time getting smarter

so I'd read everything I could get my hands on and then some.

I went to school to become...

this or that or any number of things....

pushing myself to succeed 

to get one more degree

to prove my value based on the fact 

that I got an A,

passed a class,

wrote a great paper

and

while that is good stuff--

truth it...

it didn't help me find what I was looking for---but I still didn't know what that was.

I lost lots of playing time with my kids because I was busy making myself smarter--if I had it to do over and I don't---

I would have sat in the floor,

let them roll in the mud,

enjoy the joy of splashing in the rain....

but we can't go back

can we?

Today

I choose to not live with regrets

but

to keep myself 

a bit more centered.

I try to play and rest and laugh and jump--yes--they say a big girl can't jump and the off color kids beg me to do it so they can laugh--and I do--for two reasons--I love to hear them laugh--and----I am a good jumper whether anyone else believe so or not.

I sleep when I am tired

watch TV to unwind.

I run and walk and do sit ups...

but

I am learning

learning 

to balance

a little bit here and a little bit there

not 

an

all or nothing kind of mentality any more...

I'm learning 

the art of balance

one thing at at time

I find I enjoy life more

see more

get more

grow more

hell

maybe I'm just getting old more

but

as I learn 

the art of balance

I am learning to 

live

to be

to see the world

in a new way

to enjoy the sunset

to smell the aroma of flowers and

to let the rain fall on my head.

Life 

it is short

and

when I am able to balance

in a good kind of way....

then I am able to see the world

more fully through my heart

and

yes...

that is where I find God.

may you have a balanced Monday...

smile and hug and dance and breathe...

blessings

The radical rambler...