Saturday morning reflection..........

“Lord, make me an instrument of your peace; where there is hatred, let me sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; and where there is sadness, joy.”

St. Francis of Assisi

I used to sit here in the midst of trees and brick listening to the sound of water flowing through the fountain.  It became a great reflecting place for me when I studied in seminary.  It was right between the classroom and library and it was a great place to ponder on the Mystery of Life---I never quite uncovered it, but it sure was a great place to ponder it.

I spend way too much of my time pondering and not enough time living.  Everything becomes a question in my mind, almost like I was a lawyer looking at all angles and carefully selecting which thesis is going to be my focus all the while thinking of the argument from the other side.  I suppose that is part of the scientist in me.

The other day a friend of mine asked me, "When are you going to start smiling? You always have a serious look on your face."

It kind of startled me a bit, cause Big Daddy always says the same thing.  I don't mean to be all serious and stuff and let me tell you...on the inside...I smile an awful lot....and I'm very very thankful that I have a pretty thick filter in place--'cause some of the things Sexy Hot Mama thinks--should not be said.  They are way too funny and way too silly and could be way to sharp and honest.

But her questions coupled with Big Daddy's remarks, "Smile"

have made me think---yes think some more---.

Smiling does change the face

and 

I'm sure I'd be sexier hotter with a smile.

Truth is 

alot of days I don't feel like smiling.  The world is a heavy place.

The news is full of war and illness and craziness--I rarely watch it anymore because of the heaviness.  People are struggling to make ends meet and many people are just "mean boys and mean girls".  

And while I'm not sad on the inside, I do spend way too much of my time, seeking to "know".  Seeking to know "Why"...and "How"...and "What"..."What I can do to make it better."

and

then as I write..

I have it...

If I decide to spend more time living

than watching,

more time smiling than thinking

and

more time engaged in the dance of human life

than sitting to the side and enjoying other folks dance..

well

I guess I just need to spend more time participating than watching...

...

I do want to participate in life by 

sowing peace, love, faith, hope and light.

Sitting is a good thing

thinking is a good thing

Being is a good thing

and

realizing 

that every little movement in the world does not have to be

analyzed and all motives do not have to be understood

well

suppose that is the first step to understanding

what peace is all about.

I'm just thinking this morning..

thinking about living...

.....

I smile

cause here I sit

as big daddy is in the kitchen cooking

thinking and writing 

and

zoning on this 

lazy Saturday morning

still in my pj's---looking sexy hot I might add...

Lord make me an instrument...

help me to dance

and

sing

and

be

and

laugh out loud.

Help me sow 

love and light and joy.

Help me believe 

in the goodness of people

and

grant me Hope

and 

help me to smile...

smile so others can see YOU inside of me.

May it be so...

Amen.

so this Saturday

as I think...

I sign out..

to be..

Here is a big smile to you....(SMILE)

blessings..

the radical rambler...