the little secrets we hide........

"There are no secrets in life,

only hidden truths that lie beneath the surface."

Michael Hall in Dexter

Somehow we learn to do it...

hide the things

we don't want others to know...

we bury them deep,

swallow them down,

cover them up,

and

if

for

some

chance

they begin to bubble up,

move up,

explode out,

we

run inside,

deeper into our self

and

close it all off,

build walls of brick around us

to protect our self--from that little secret

that brings us hurt or pain or shame.

We go behind the bricks we make and use---

food, drugs, overworking, sex, alcohol,---

numbing bricks

used to hide that "secret thing"

or so

we say--

hide it 

from the world,

but really truth be known..

we

are really hiding

from our self.

no light can enter

as

we

close the window--no cool breeze for us---

push the shutters closed---cause the light reveals

the secret lie, bringing it to the surface,

allowing exposure for

not only all the world to see,

but also

also 

to

us.

On this Sunday,

I recall

all the little secrets

that

have held me back,

closed me off,

disguised my pain and hurt and shame...

One day,

I opened up,

opened the shutters,

looked at myself as the light flooded in,

I cracked the window

and

a refreshing cool wind

hit my face

and

I realized....

secrets...tiny secrets....

all

they do is

hold us back

the truth....well it frees us....

Happy Evening..

Hugs and Blessings...