Let the light shine in and the Healing begin.....

"Healing may not be so much about getting better, as about letting go of everything that isn't you - all of the expectations, all of the beliefs - and becoming who you are."

- Rachel Naomi Remen 

{disclaimer from Big Daddy's reaction}

He started reading and said it sounded like

a Lesbian Love affair---this is not what this is about--it is a spiritual journey with God.  Just in case there are other readers who think like the Big Daddy!!!!

I have carried "it" around for as long as I can remember,

this pain,

the ache,

the "thing" that keeps me afraid.

It strangles me,

keeps me all bound up,

imprisoned emotions that stir around inside of me

limiting my ability to be who I am.

"it" causes me to be afraid,

the fear to open up,

reveal all the unique gifts of mine to the world,

causes me to push the joy and laughter and life

down inside an analytical brain

that

thinks away the feeling.

I entered the darkness,

afraid of who I would encounter,

afraid of what I might bump into....

I felt my way along,

touched the ancient walls of the past

feeling surroundings that were all too familiar

in an unsettling kind of way.

I moved slowly,

wondering

what or who

I might encounter.

Then I met her...

healing medicine woman of sorts

with

her anointing balm

and

energized hands.

I stood still,

felt her energy vibrate in rhythmic

creative manners.

She touched me,

I suddenly wasn't afraid,

Suddenly

I felt grounded,

safe,

secure,

I could feel that fear coming up,

clinging with claws dug in,

I felt inner tension,

turmoil,

confusions...

let go

said the medicine woman,

let go and see

she anointed my head,

my feet,

my heart,

I looked up,

the weeds planted by others that had grown over and covered me up,

shifted to the right,

into my darkness,

came a

flood of

white light,

bathing my wounds,

cleaning my heart,

touching me

with photons

of

hope and love

and

I felt changed....

The light flood my being,

moved over old wounds,

cleaned out the weeds and cobwebs and unwanted trash...

and

suddenly

for a

fraction of a moment,

the tension left me,

and

I surrendered.

Light bathed me,

healed me if you will

and

I will never be the same

for healing light touched my dry spirit

filled me up

quenched my thirst,

bathed me,

healed me.

anointed  me with love

and

I will never ever be the same.

On this Saturday night..

I am thankful for

a

day

full of

healing light...

blessings and hugs...