Eastered

“Awakening is not a thing. It is not a goal, not a concept. It is not something to be attained. It is a metamorphosis. If the caterpillar thinks about the butterfly it is to become, saying ‘And then I shall have wings and antennae,’ there will never be a butterfly. The caterpillar must accept its own disappearance in its transformation. When the marvelous butterfly takes wing, nothing of the caterpillar remains.”
― Alejandro Jodorowsky

Suddenly, in an instant or more like a year,

a transformation moved over me, settled upon me, unfolded within so slowly I couldn't even recognize that it was happening.

I can remember as I stand and reflect.  I can almost feel it again.

I recall It---- Darkness moving over my spirit,

removing any hint of light and finding myself

LOST

Lost within myself,

Lost and Unconnected,

Lost and ready to Leave...Leave it All.

I continued to walk

not knowing how my next step my occur...not really knowing if I could or wanted to continue but somehow

I did.

I traveled to the very edge

stood for a moment

thought about it

and

cried out...

cried out 

to something or someone or anything

to send me 

something 

anything

anyone

who might

Save me.

Darkness came over

Fog settled on my thinking process,

a film covered my ability to see see clearly

and

I stopped for a bit...

and

I found myself

entombed within myself.

Lost

 I waited

waited for a long time

what seemed forever for 

You to come

and

you did

rag around your charcoal hair,

African Accent

and

you said,

when you put your feet on the ground

:praise God you are alive:

....

and 

I was Eastered

eastered up from the darkness

pulled forth into the light

oh it didn't occur over night

it has taken a while

to walk out

walk into the light of resurrection

but

I 

am there

moving forth from my resting place

into the world

to be 

fully 

known

by name

fully seen

fully present

and

as 

someone one said,

Life...

it is Good....and I'm glad I get to do it.

Thankful for Resurrections of all kinds

Thankful for Sonshine that calls me forth

Thankful

for Easter moments 

that 

cause 

us

to be recreated, rebirthed, risen if you will

into a better version--a transformed version--of who we were created to be..

So thankful...

I've been Eastered...over and over and over again.

May you too

feel Easter resurrection

on this 

Holy Sunday...

Blessings

The Radical Rambler

ps. don't eat too much chocolate