Thirst.....

“But I don't want comfort. 

I want God, I want poetry, I want real danger,

 I want freedom, I want goodness......”
― Aldous Huxley, Brave New World

In the womb
there I was 
me
little something of sorts
atoms and electrons and quirks 
bonds and charges and compounds
all piling up
building up on top of each other
growing
developing
becoming.
IT-watery fluid-
supported me
warmed me
birthed me up and out and into the world if you will. 
IT was all I knew!

Now i find
an unquenchable thirst
deep inside of me
I try my best to ignore IT,
force IT down,
forget about IT,

IT
ancient folks
said it was like a deer panting for water
longing for IT
I'd agree
but most times
you wouldn't find me saying it out loud
looking for it
mostly
well truthfully
mostly i spend more time
trying to find a way 
to
"fill IT up"
"mix IT up"
"forget about it somehow"
but
IT
that deep longing
that dryness in the crevices of my heart spaces
IT is there
waiting...
waiting...
to be filled
waiting for me 
to quench my insatiable thirst
that only IT can fill.

I wait until I am half dead
parched 
withering away
...
I try not to see YOU
hear You
pretend
at times
like I don't even know who or what or how You are or can be
truth is I don't understand that any more than I understand this 
dry thirst that comes over me...
but then
without any rhyme or reason
other than your undying love for me
YOU---incredible IT---
that you are
....
somehow in your way
through sunset and human and little blades of grass 
pushing up toward YOU..reveal your incredible ITNESS...

You stop me on my slow steady crawl
and
tease me with a cool drop...
it touches my tongue
moves over and down the back of my throat
dry parched sandy spirit
touched
By You---I feel an electric spirit charge--as You and I mix together
....
I look up
You surround me
enfold me
You 
breath of life
say to me
"Drink"
I look at you
skeptic at heart 
and hear myself laugh--saying--"really--yeah right!"
:Drink:
I savored You in the small dose I could take in
my soul
well you restored me
infused me
and
I thought I was too full to drink more
but
yet
I'm still thirsty
........
You just
 smile ...
then hand me a 
another tall glass...
Drink up...
there's plenty where that came from...
and 
I walked on down the road,
skipped a bit
and
then went on about my
little life
....
and
I suspect
just when
I need YOU
There you will be
tiny drop of LOVE Dew
overflowing waterfall
ancient Spring
flowing from the depths of all time and place
You
the 
IT
I have known forever
and you'll say to me
Thirsty...
well drink on up..there's plenty where that came from...
IT
Incredible 
abundant IT.


Be a happy Thursday......

blessings..
the Radical Rambler