leap and land.....

Faith is a process of leaping into the abyss 

not on the basis of any certainty about "where" we shall land, but rather on the belief 

that we "shall" land.

-- Carter Heyward

Faith...

I sometimes try to explain it and often wonder where it really comes from...

I wonder why some folks seem to have larger dose of it and why some seem to have--well virtually none.

Is it our life experiences?

The Skeptics inside of us?

The circle of knowing we received from our family of origins?

I don't know the answer

just have lots of wonders

....

Everyone of us 

as we travel along,

winding around, 

up and down 

to and fro

has a pivotal moment

when we climb atop the mountain 

sweating and pushing

muscles aching

just trying to get to the top

....

sweat beads dripping off our face,

running down our back,

sitting to rest of a bit,

seeing all kinds of magical wonders along the way,

grass pushing and swaying,

"critters" of God's creation

big and small

running around 

hopping around 

flying about,

mushrooms with their umbrella tops

decorate the dusty landscape in brilliant and unusual colors and the 

green moss spreads a carpet of sort

in which to sit,

rest ,

refresh,

be

and 

then we push forward just a bit more

not being really sure we'll make it there

but determined none the less

...

and

we climb

one foot in front of the other

back bent over with the weight of the stuff we can't leave behind....

...

the top must be almost there...

just beyond the next bend...

don't you think?

step after step

and

just when one believes they can't 

make one more movement

just as the last turn is taken

vibrant light breaks

through on the path

and

an opening

an

awe inviting opening

and

we step out

reaching the top

and with shaky legs

move ever so slowly toward the edge

breath becoming shallow

fear rising up,

flooding up,

overtaking

and

I stand

gazing into the horizon of the future

unsure of where it will lead

the thrill of the unknown

it pulls me..

pulls me to the edge

and

suddenly

I find myself

there...

at the most important moment 

of all

....

what next?

do I turn and go back to what I've always known

what I've always done

do I hold myself back

bind myself up...

retreat...

or

do I just do it

you know

say it

what the "f"

and

do IT..

move to the very edge of what is known 

to the edge of what I've never seen

and look down

into the abyss of uncertainty

do I dare?

dare jump into it?

dive into it?

fall face first into 

the wonder of "something" i can't describe?

Will I live?

And there I stand

and something in and behind and above and below

says it...

go ahead

do it

fall on into the depths of that little thing 

George Michael's says we must have...

Faith...

and

so 

I 

decided to trust

and I fell face first 

into the openness of the unknown

believing

"something or someone" 

would 

catch me and set me where I needed to be...

may it be so

for all of us

who 

decide on this day

to take the dive of faith...

Go ahead.....

Jump!.

have a great Monday and blessings..

The radical rambler..

So off color daughter is getting ready for her China trip..

here is a link to her etsy store 

where she is selling her crochet items to pad her pocket..

check it out

off color daughter's crochet store