Sunday Stretching....

"There's a reason we refer to "leaps of faith" - because the decision to consent to any notion of divinity is a mighty jump from the rational over to the unknowable, and I don't care how diligently scholars of every religion will try to sit you down with their stacks of books and prove to you through scripture that their faith is indeed rational; it isn't. If faith were rational, it wouldn't be - by definition - faith. Faith is belief in what you cannot see or prove or touch. Faith is walking face-first and full-speed into the dark. If we truly knew all the answers in advance as to the meaning of life and the nature of God and the destiny of our souls, our belief would not be a leap of faith and it would not be a courageous act of humanity; it would just be... a prudent insurance policy." — Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

Sacred Ground,

Hope,

full force

full speed

through the dark

seeking a bit of light..

a flicker

a spark of

hope....

I don't know about any of you and most of you will be surprised to hear

someone who often preaches admit outloud that she/he struggles with faith or with a belief in

SOMETHING BIGGER OR GREATER OR MORE MYSTICAL THAN THEMSELVES---but

i do just about every day.

My scientific mind sometimes can't wrap my analytic way of thinking--- around the Universal Power...

but then again,

I have never understood electricity or electrons and i've never seen an atom...

some days

on those empty rainy days of the soul

when i can't muster up hope

or have the courage to walk full faced in the dark....I have to admit..

Some days..if i'm really honest,

i'm not sure I know what i believe...

this thing I call God...

It gurgles and bubbles up

from the basement of an ancient genesis of time...

it moves over mountains, through dusty deserts,

flashes though out space and time...

it ripples over my heart

it urges me forward,

wraps it tentacles of love around me and beckons me  toward it....

some days,

I'd rather stay all hunkered down

all curled up

with my bed of

leaves pulled over me for protection and warmth...

it's darkness is familiar and comfortable...

but then I feel it's warm life-force

melt over my frozen heart

I feel the melt begin,

 disbelief and confusion suddenly fades into the background

and before I can fathom what is happening,

I feel the pull of the greater divine ...

i feel the awe long before I see it smell it or taste it

it nourishes my soul

my roots push down to touch the basement of my beginning

I feel renewed

the light

beckons me on out of the dark

and

suddenly

wrapped in the Love of what I choose to call God

The Great Divine It

pulls me forth

I feel myself begin

to green my color changing from brown to the green of new growth

my leaves push up from their hiding place

and

i begin

the slow

uncurling process

the stretch toward

something..

don't know what it is

but for today

I see a flicker of light...

and i

believe...

i don't know the answers...

but today I choose.