what if....we lived..........

When you get those rare moments of clarity,

 those flashes when the universe makes sense, you try desperately to hold on to them.

 They are the life boats for the darker times, when the vastness of it all, the incomprehensible nature of life is completely illusive.

 So the question becomes, or should have been all a long... 

What would you do if you knew you only had one day, or one week, or one month to live.

 What life boat would you grab on to? 

What secret would you tell?

 What band would you see?

 What person would you declare your love to? 

What wish would you fulfil?

 What exotic locale would you fly to for coffee?

 What book would you write? 

unknown---from a movie I just can't remember which one!!!

I was reading the other day and ran upon a quote that simply said something to the effect of

treat each person you meet as if 

today is their last day....

and 

I thought

hum....

can I do that?

and

I wondered how impactful that might be if I tried....

let me just say,

I am not successful all the time

but

when I am able

it enables me to be in the presence of 

people I do not like

and

actually

not grimace or think mean things or turn my body into a communicator all its own 

keeps me from rolling my eyes or looking at the ground in disinterest....

it gets me through the day...

truth is

I still don't like a few folks

or should I say..

don't like their specific defects of character any more than they like mine...

but

if I embody this...

today is their last day

what it does do is 

help me..

it helps me to stay grounded

grounded 

in 

love instead of hate

peace instead of dissettled air

contentment instead of anxiousness...

it works

maybe not so much for them as for me...

but then again

isn't everything in life a chain like reaction...

the impact of one change 

shifts over and touches the next and

that one little change..

that one little shift

continues to trickle down in ways we can't see or explain.

it changes the world...

so in saying that

i move on to the the questions in the quote above....

I must say...

if I knew today was my last day...

what would I do???

I'd call my parents

and  

I'd thank them for birthing me..

for doing their very best with me

for sacrificing and working and doing and loving.

I'd tell my brother and my sister how much I love them--cause truth is---

I don't  think I tell them or show it to them very often

I'd hug up to Big Daddy

give him one of his back rubs he begs me for

and

thank him

for loving me

for allowing me to love him back

for 

contributing to my life's joy

for teaching me to 

take chances and dream and laugh

and play...

I'd thank him for my two children

and then I'd hug up to them as well.

I thank them for allowing me to journey with them

for 

keeping me on my feet and calling me out and for 

teaching me

what grace and mercy and unconditional love were all about....

and

then I'd call

my couple of "sister friends" who have stood with me through the dark nights of my soul and sailed with me through the pinacles of my successes...

they have seen me with bad hair, zits,

hairy legs and messed up minds and they 

loved me through it all...

I wouldn't have to say anything to them

because they'd know how much I love them without even having to say it....they are intutitive like that....

Life

it is short

I see it with my life's work every day...

and 

some days

I allow the actions of others to 

put a cloud over 

my own joy and my own ability to live full in the world.

Today...

I'm gonna try

to live 

as if 

.....

and 

see what happens...

report to follow..

hope you'll do the same...

blessings..

the radical rambler....