TOWANDA!!!!!

Evelyn: Excuse me. I was waiting for that space.

Girl #1: Yeah, tough!

Girl #2: Face it, lady, we're younger and faster.

Evelyn: ... Towanda. (screams and smashes into the car) Towanda!! Yes ma'am!

Girl #2: what are you doing? Are you crazy?

Evelyn: Face it, girls. I'm older and I have more insurance.

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later during a visit to the nursing home.....

Evelyn: I never get mad, Mrs Threadgoode. Never. The way I was raised, it was bad manners. Well, I got mad and it felt terrific. I felt like I could beat the shit out of all those punks. Excuse my language. Just beat 'em to a pulp. beat 'em till they begged for mercy. Towanda the avenger. And after I wipe out all the punks of this world, I'll take on the wife-beaters, like Frank Bennett, and machine-gun their genitals! Towanda will go on the rampage. I'll put tiny little bombs in Penthouse and Playboy so they'll explode when you open them. And I'll ban all fashion models who weigh less than 130 pounds. And I'll give half the military budget to people of 65 and declare wrinkles sexually desirable. Towanda, righter of wrongs, queen beyond compare!

Ninny: How many of them hormones are you taking, honey?

from Fried Green Tomatoes

Towanda!!!!

I love this movie and I especially love the scene where revenge and satisfaction comes

when Evelyn becomes Towanda, rams the car who stole her parking place

and screams Towanda....finding her voice.

I guess it reminds me off all the years I kept silent about just about everything

and then suddenly when I broke through some of the old pain that kept my real voice repressed,

I became Towanda...

trying to bulldoze my way,

claim my space,

save the world,

save the system and right all the wrongs.

Being in a Towanda place was fun for a while,

but

I've mellowed out somewhat now--though push the right button

and

Towanda might just slam into your car....but instead of screaming,

my mode of operation

is hidden sarcasm covered with a smile...

piss Towanda off...

I'll eventually slay you with my words.

I've kind of been in a Towanda mood today..

I don't know why,

I'm edgy,

off color daughter even asked if I'd taken my crazy pills today....

Big Daddy asked me why I was trying to argue...

I raised my brows because I didn't even know I was trying....

Perhaps it is because I've taken two days off from the gym...

the endorphins there always make me calmer...I always get a bit edgy without them...

I finally took a long walk,

listened to the crackle of leaves under my feet,

photographed God's creation and

stood in awe of the splashes of color and texture as I walked.

Vegan Bread (pumpkin and banana for off color daughter)

is baking,

the aroma of Cinnamon and nutmeg drifts through the house,

football is on for the off color boys

and

I'm getting ready to settle down with a book for the evening.

Even on a Towanda kind of day...

I am able to stand back...

and

settle myself a bit

and

find gratitude for an ordinary fall day

filled with wonder,

peace,

joy,

hope

mixed together

with

a bit of Towanda...

I'm sure Ninny would say,

"better get you some of them hormones, girl"

Have a sacred Sunday evening...

find wonder in whatever you do

and

if you need to...

find that voice inside and allow Towanda to take charge.

Blessings...