Lazy Days and Mondays.....

You can't be friends with a squirrel! A squirrel is just a rat with a cuter outfit.”

Carrie Bradshaw from Sex in the City

I was sitting out on my deck yesterday morning---

having worship if you will--

sometimes for me...

a Sunday Morning on the deck

with a hot steaming cup of coffee and the sounds of the Universe

are the best sanctuary in the whole world.

As a first born overachiever...

I tend to have problems with

sitting back and taking it easy.

My mind runs about five thousand miles fast

and unless I am very intentional with my meditation...

it is very hard to stay centered.

As I was sitting there, staring into the trees just being present,

this guy came up,

laid down right in front of me and stared for a few minutes....

next thing I new he was snoozing away.

I thought about how lazy he was....

how he ought to be...doing something...

and I realized...

the same thing I think about a little squirrel enjoying a day

resting and sunning is

what I feel about people....who rest, or take a break or enjoy doing nothing...

I think they are lazy,

unmotivated,

no ambition.....

I watched him awhile...

and now that it's Monday,

I find myself thinking about him....

I've been feeling sick all weekend...

pushed myself on Saturday to pretend my throat did not hurt,

rested a bit on Sunday,

but went to the gym and did several miles and burned several hundred calories on the treadmill...

went to work

today

even though I could barely swallow---

sat at my desk and actually spit in a Kleenex...

now I have paid sick time--lots of it...

and I sat there spitting in a Kleenex---looking back there is something very wrong with that picture.

I did have a strep screen done down the hall and it appears that i have a virus...

I came home,

went to the gym...omg...I went to the gym even though I could not swallow--how sick am I.

and

now as I begin to think about being lazy...and

I realize,

I might learn a bit from my furry friend....

It is okay to slow down,

to enjoy the view,

but I want to do it better and faster and first...

I want to cram everything in,

to have a cherry on top kind of day

--- every day...

to live,

and laugh and dance and sing....

but for today and maybe tomorrow...

I'm gonna take a Lazy Monday evening day...

going to bed early,

going to pamper myself..

and I'll be damned if I let this over achieving first born girl

spoil it for me....do you ever fight with yourself.

Lazy Day Monday reflections

on Sundays gone past

can sometimes

open our eyes,

and

teach an old dog a new trick....

perhaps.....my friend...the lazy squirrel

has taught me that

enjoying the view..sometimes means you

just lay and stare and breath and sun....and do absolutely NOTHING! imagine that!!!

Have a Lazy Reflective Monday Evening....

you never know what you will learn about yourself....

Happy Monday...and Hugs to all of you.