A journey of Love......Motherhood!

"My love for you is a journey; 
Starting at forever, And ending at never." 
- anonymous quotation

Motherhood---

I never quite understood what it was all about...

nor did I appreciate the wonderful mother and father I had been given in a ways that I should have....

but 

those two minutes when it happened,

when 

off-color son

and

off-color daughter arrived into our off color world

I suddenly got a glimmer of what love was really about--

now don't get me wrong---i was already madly in love with Big Daddy---but that moment when 

those two off color things--thing one and thing two---were placed in my arms,

I realized it...

I had began a journey of love

that would never end....

and while 

I did have the thought...

"what the hell am I supposed to do now..."

the moment our eyes met--

off color son and off color daughters at different times of course--one year apart--

my heart swelled and skipped a beat 

and suddenly 

I understood motherhood

and

my mother 

and her mother and the incredible

connection

that bound our hearts together.

Staring into their blue eyes,

the world stopped 

and

Creative Love from above

wove around and through 

and 

enfolded us...

and without rhyme or reason...

without even understanding how it could happen,

we were connected by blood and crazy genetics

and

by a bond

so deep and strong 

I promise

you

it will never be broken.

I stared

deeper 

and 

it unfolded...

an understanding

of grace that I never knew before

grace in the sense of what the Creative Universe gives each of us

without us even knowing...

and

I realized

"there is nothing"

absolutely nothing

that will ever 

ever 

make me stop loving you...

I began a journey...

an

unending journey of faith, grace, hope and love...

that 

circles around

in mystical love swirls

and

I am all the better

for in the world as a person for

becoming 

a mother 

to the off color children.

Thank you

for 

making me laugh,

teaching me to see the world differently,

opening my heart wider and deeper,

and

providing me hope

that our world will get better with the next generation.

I love you...

dear off color son and off color daughter 

in ways you will never understand..

until that moment...

that moment....

my grandchildren are placed into your arms

(be assured I do not want you to experience it anytime soon)

but

when it happens

you like me

will begin a journey that will never end---

it starts at forever and ends with never!

Thank you

for being our children

Big Daddy's and mine.

I love you!!!

and 

Happy Mothers Day to the One who Loved me--

my mama!!

The Radical Rambler