Descending into the Abyss of Darkness

“The depth of darkness to which you can descend and still live is an exact measure of the height to which you can aspire to reach.”
UNKNOWN



There is a place

deep in the dark abyss of my soul

that I've never seen before.

It is buried deep down

below my heart space

in the crevices of my soul.

It has been covered by

the gifts of my family

and layered with life experiences...

hidden by things given to me by others

I have pretended that it is not even there.

I look inside.

The darkness scares me

and

truth is

i don't like not knowing where I'm going

or not being in total control.

The light of the other places inside myself

bears witness to

people I've seen

and

places I've been.

The darkness...it has always scared me a bit

and

well I've not allowed myself to explore

the depths of the caverns,

I've not been inside the secret tunnels or

crawled through the hidden passages.

I've avoided looking in,

taking the adventure into the depths of the unknown

avoided becoming all I might be.

Today,

I walked by,

gazed deep into the secret place

that nobody has ever touched or seen or even knows about.

I stuck my foot inside,

eased myself deep down inside

and

as my eyes adjusted to the silence and the darkness

my fear subsided

and

suddenly

 I felt at one with myself and God and life.

There is something here..

something special and peaceful

deep inside

hidden in this space

hidden inside of me

it is incubating,

waiting to unfold,

the abyss...

I don't know why it scared me so

because

it feels like I'm suddenly

at home inside myself.

Happy Saturday!!!!

Hugs and Blessings....