Tuesday, April 10, 2012

a fusion of the heart.....

"We cannot tell the precise moment when friendship is formed.
 As in filling a vessel drop by drop, there is at last a drop which makes it run over;
so in a series of kindnesses there is at last one which makes the heart run over." -- Samuel Johnson


It is a magical mystical kind of happening
a fusion that occurs with us humans.
Eyes meet,
laughter mixes,
drops of kindness, acts of generosity, moments of sharing,
and
drop by drop
the
cup fills
to the brim
bounces over the edge
and
the
bonds of our life
mingle together
mix together
and
we
are forever bound together,
fused in a weird way that we
humans
simply call friends.

It has happened more times than I can count,
this
wonderment,
this
adventure,
this
gift of sorts
and
no matter where we meet,
how we learn about each other,
our lives
our bonds
our worlds
become intertwined
and
what happens to you
suddenly
happens to me
without
me ever understanding why.


Our journey's continue
life moves on
but
because of a splash of wonder
a moment
when our individual cups
overflowed
we
are forever connected
and
for this...
this wonderment
that I don't understand...
I
for
one
am thankful.


This week a very close friend of mine lost her husband of over thirty years.
She called me shortly after it happened.  I was speechless.  I didn't know what to say.
I felt a state of shock roll over me.
She asked me to pray.
I pondered for a moment,
reaching deep into my heart
struggling to know
the right thing to pray for....
I really just had to trust the universe
and
let the words flow and I can't tell you what i said.

I haven't been able to get her off of my mind.
Her pain
Her pain is mine to share
I can't make it better
can't change what has happened...
but then
that is not the role of a friend, isn't it.
Seems
we are connected
connected in a weird fashion
a God bonding of sort.
I hold her in my heart,
I pray for her and ask the Creative Wonder of the Universe to hold her.
My soul
aches for her.

I stood last night at the visitation.
When I walked in,
our eyes met.
We didn't have to say anything---there was no need.
She was with a bunch of folks doing those things one must do
in these circumstances.
I stood in the sanctuary and watched memories of their life flash across the screen.
I watched
as
relationship formed,
babies were born,
holidays passed,
laughter shared
and
love..
love so deep
it was tangible
rolled across the screen.
In a bit,
she found me.
We didn't have to talk...
eyes met,
hearts intertwined
and
we embraced.
I could feel the searing pain of her broken heart.
i grabbed onto a piece for just a moment
to let her breathe and
then
I left...
left her standing....
I am thankful for a friend
who allows me to share pain as well as laughter,
allows me to feel fear as well as her courage,
her stand with her weakness
 in spite of her strength.

May the Spirit...
move around her...
hold her up...
and
grant her peace.

If you have a friend...
a deep friend...
be thankful this morning...
for drops that overflow and bind....
and
utter
a quick prayer of thanksgiving.

Blessings to all of you this morning...but
especially
to my friend RSC.







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