a little off balance...........

“Toleration is the greatest gift of the mind;

it requires the same effort of the brain that it takes to balance oneself on a bicycle.”

Helen Keller

I will admit it!

Even if I don't want too...

I've been off balance today...

my nerves were on edge

and if the balancing metaphor of a bike is what we use..

well...

my bike had the kickstand broken, the handlebars off skew,

and  flat tire.

I was edgy,

mean,

ready to slap a few folks..

I guess

I was not very tolerant...

or

if I'm honest..

was mad at myself for being too tolerant.

expectations,

perceptions,

color the way we see life...

Life is a balancing act

hungry

angry

lonely

tired...

and

suddenly

something gets heavy,

the scale starts to teeter and

the wheel falls off the bike

and

suddenly

I bite my tongue to keep from saying what shouldn't be said...

I

feel the bubble start...

I swallow it down,

get quiet,

sullen,

afraid to speak

because the last nerve..

the very last nerve is being squished....

I'm tired,

I was hungry,

everyone who looked at me today..

pissed me off..

not a great day..

but that is where I am where i was...

didn't do much spreading my wings,

letting my positive energy change the world...not today anyway...

so

for tonight,

I am tired...

my stomach is full

and

as I reflect upon my day...

I realize..

dammit..

I'm human..

i get off balance

so tonight I

learn from the experience....

tomorrow is a new day,

a fresh start,

perhaps the balance will be better..

hope your day was better than mine...

hope your bike didn't wreck or collapse or have a flat.

I'll try and get up on the right side of the bed tomorrow...even though politically i swing to the left.........

the right side of the bed...will work.

going to bed now..

tired,

eyes sleepy...

blessings and hugs.